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tehehee no that would be ridiculous :P
I am so happy Jamie convinced me to write this fic, other fics-in-progress or no, because it’s been making me so happy I have been having such ageplay fic cravings (maybe even rl ageplay cravings idk it’s hard to tell????).
someday I will write the stories of kurt figuring out that blaine is little and his patient encouragement of blaine admitting it to himself and the one where blaine first gets mister bear because i have ~feelings~ about these stories both alike and unalike my feelings for baby kinksters ‘verse
the mister bear story will be hard to write tho i can tell that already
which sounds strange when i say it like that
but no srsly it will be emotionally taxing to write about blaine trying to deny wanting the present kurt gave him and just the textural touching of the toy and huh if i am on the spectrum the way persephonesidekick says i am maybe petting stuffed animals especially mister bear is a stim of some kind because seriously i will do that for hours it’s so calming.
So petting stuff animals is calming?
Sometimes I feel like you must be messing with me because you’re just soooooooooo obvious.
DON’T MOST PEOPLE FIND PETTING STUFFED ANIMALS CALMING????
NTs find hugging stuffed animals calming, especially as small children and/or littles. NTs find petting stuffed animals vaguely pleasurable once or twice but would get bored in less than a minute. Most NTs barely ever think about or notice textures at all.
Petting stuffed animals for a long period of time to calm down is a stim, basically by definition. You’re deliberatlely getting repetitive sensory stimulus to regulate your moods, anxiety or sensory processing; that’s like what a stim means.
Lots of different kinds of people stim. No one thing you do proves anything. But in the aggregate you basically have enough traits that if you’re not actually one of its its because you’re actively pretending to be or something.
I have lots of autistic acquaintances and have interacted in groups of us. You’re less impaired than most of us and probably couldn’t get a literal diagnosis, but place take our word for it that it’s not the disorder that matters for the diagnosis. You’d fit in completely. You may be overwhelmed by how normal you suddenly seem in context. You’re downright freaking stereotypical, not by the stereotypes of NTs but by our own stereotypes of each other.
I really feel bad for being push and you can tell me to stop at any time, but…
I’ve watched denial play out in a couple of my friends already and I’m just trying my best to help you skip a couple years of self-conscious doubt. It’s probably really presumptuous of me to act like this is a sure thing, but I’d be lying if I said I had any doubt left in my mind.
Okay, I’m going to shut up now.
huh. it’s really. strange. is all. It’s like there are all these things that were just weird things i (and sometimes family members) did and it turns out other people do them too? like they’re not BIG things. but even if i’m not really sure i fit as ‘autistic’ i can definitely see a whole lot of stims i do all of the time - petting stuffed animals, or rubbing part of myself or a piece of furniture, running the ends of my hair against my face over and over again, even sometimes really tuneless humming that just repeats the same pitches over and over again (actually funnily enough that’s a really good sign that i’m pretty deep in subspace. i pretty much always start humming like that.) so it’s weird and kind of uncomfortable when you push but it’s also a good kind of uncomfortable? like it gives me permission to actually consider the idea and not just think i’m talking myself into things.
I am so confused do other people REALLY not notice textures all the time? I mean I knew other people were less ~sensitive~ to them but textures. touching. what. ????